Death

Pernah tak all of u terfikir pasal kematian?
it's like when u're about to sleep, suddenly terfikir kalau Allah tarik nyawa aku, apa akan jadi?
or when u're walking on the streets, if a car hits u and u die, what will happen?
or suddenly u receive a call saying that u lost both ur parents or one of them or ur siblings or whoever..
have u ever think of all that?
i do think of it everytime i go to sleep..
and the feeling when u think of death is so scary and terrifying that i'm afraid to fall asleep..
i've been having those feelings lately..
i've been thinking what if tomorrow i don't get to talk to my mum and dad..
what if i don't get to wake up every morning and see how beautiful is God's creation..
if i'm dead, how am i gonna tell it to my parents or how am i gonna talk to them..
bila kita dah x bernyawa, apa pun kita dah x boleh buat..
hanya sekujur tubuh yang tidak bernyawa..helpless..
i'm scared...i'm terrified..i'm still not ready..
i'm still searching for a lot of things and there are still a lot of things that i need to do..
all i want to do is to make my parents proud and happy..and to give them happiness that they deserve..
banyak lagi yang aku perlu perbaiki and pelajari dan aku masih lagi mencari hidayah Allah setiap hari..

"Ya Allah, berikanlah kesempatan pada ku untuk berbakti kepada kedua ibu bapa ku dan berikanlah aku peluang untuk membahagiakan ibu bapa ku dan berikanlah hidayah pada mereka dan juga aku supaya kami dapat berkumpul sebagai sebuah keluarga di Syurga Mu nanti..kekalkan lah ikatan kekeluargaan ini sampai ke Syurga Mu nanti..Amin.."

it's a girl's thing..

my friends always told me that my bag is so heavy as if there are stones in it..and they'll call my bag as the doraemon pocket bag since i have practically everything in there..well, i do practice the quote "sediakan payung sebelum hujan" in my daily life..haha..tapi sebenarnya, hati nie akan rasa puas kalau bawa everything..baru rasa mcm semua dh lengkap..i just feel like there are sum things that every girls should have in their handbags..haha..

Things that MUST have in my bag:

1. tissue..dry tissue and wet tissue (wipes)
2. lip balm..if my lips are dry..
3. powder for the face..any powder can do..baby powder pun ok..to make my face look fresh if i'm out all day..
4. lotion..to keep my skin moisturize 24 hours..
5. eye-liner..since i'm a big fan of eye-liner..
6. vicks and minyak cap kapak..in case my nose are blocked or sakit perut ke ape kan..
7. plaster..in case i cut myself by accident.. :p
8. hair clips
9. comb
10. cologne
11. scrunchies
12. sunglasses
13. purse
14. handphone
15. ipad
16. ipod

so, there u go..things that i MUST bring in my handbag..i know it's a lot..but if one of them is not in the beg then i'll feel weird..hahaha..that's just me..maybe orang lain x begitu complicated kot list dia..hehe..rambut je sama hitam tp hati, perangai n personality semua lain2..baru lar ada variasi..baru hidup akan ceria...(xde kena mengena laangsung dengan topic) tp x kesah pun...this is my blog..suka hati lar nak merepek apa pun..haha.. :p

p/s: me-relax-kan otak bila dah penat and tepu seharian study..huhu..all the best to me for tomorrow! :)

exam week!

29/10/2012 - 7/11/2012

My Exam Week

exam is starting tomorrow..and i hope that i'm ready for it..exam week is the most stressful week for every student..that's the time for pimple breakouts also..argh! seteresss habaq hang..anyways, i really hope my hard work or to be more precise my last minute hard work will pay off by passing the exam with flying colours..

To all pharmacy students and medic students batch 2009 of Universitas Padjadjaran Bandung, i wish all of us the best of luck for our mid-term exam..let's nail it people.. :) ganbatte kudasai!

p/s: this is how my face gonna look like when i'm answering the paper tomorrow and the days to come.. :p

openhouse unpad09

Hello!

Salam Eidul Adha dari saya yang jauh di Bandung.. :)

Alhamdulillah ini adalah tahun ke-4 beraya di Bandung..tahun nie raya meriah sedikit berbanding dengan tahun2 yang sebelum nie..and memang ternyata even x raya dengan family, tapi beraya dengan kawan2 yang senasib dengan kita pun sebenarnyer meriah jugak..if we want to be happy, we have to make ourselves happy..we have to find our own happiness..and vice-versa..we are the ones that control our life..so, the choice is ours to make..if we want to be happy, then be happy..if we want to be sad, then be sad..yes..mmg beraya dgn kawan2 n family tue lain..but at least dapat mengubat homseick di hati ini dgn bergumbira bersama kawna2..because all of us here are away from family masing2 so, kitorang dah boleh dikatakan sebagai one big family di sini..mereka telah menggembirakan hati saya pada hari raya kali ini..terima kasih kawan2..and thanks everyone for the delicious food and the laughters for today..ukhwah itu indah.. :)

Here are some photo's from today.. :) enjoy!

the food galore we had today! :)

the girls batch 2009

them! :)

pretty ladies

Lastly, kami semua dari batch 2009 student UNPAD Bandung ingin mengucapkan salam eidul adha 1433H buat semua keluarga dan rakan2 kami yang kami sayangi..selamat hari raya! :)

Happy Birthday Mama! :)

Happy Birthday Mummy Dearest! 

She's my everything..without her i'm nothing..she's my mum, my sister, my bestfriend, my teacher and also not forgetting she's my rakan bergaduh di rumah since i don't have younger siblings..hahaha..she has brought me up into who i am today and i'm grateful for that..she has teach me a lot about life..yes, sumtimes we do fight even for the smallest reason and sumtimes i do admit that i feel stressed whenever she starts her long lecture and keep on nagging the whole time even when there's no particular reason to get mad or angry..but no matter what, she's my mum..who has carried me for 9 months in her belly..and undergoes tremendous labour pain while trying to deliver me into this world..thank u mama..thank u for everything that u've done for me..i'm sorry i can't be there on your birthday..4 years in a row i'm not there to celebrate it with u..insyaAllah i'll celebrate your b'day next year with u.. :)

In every smile, every tear and every cheer you were always there for me through the years supporting me and providing me with all the energy I needed in order to stand in the game called life. Words in any language in all over the world are not enough to express how grateful I am for having you in my life and for what you have done for me throughout the years. You’ve seen me happy, you’ve seen me sad, you’ve seen me mad. I may not have always said it, but i love you so much mama. I’m so thankful that I have you as a Mom. You're the best Mom in all over the world. Happy Birthday Mama!

with lots of love from Bandung,
your youngest and manja daughter. ♥

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

Hello! Nama kita moo moo..kita nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat..happy selalu! :D

Alhamdulillah, diberi lagi peluang untuk bertemu dengan hari raya aidiladha pada tahun ini.. :) and this is the fourth year i'm celebrating it in Bandung..it's sad that i don't get to celebrate it with my family back home and berkumpul ramai2 with all the aunties, uncles and cousins..but i'm thankful that i still get to celebrate it even not with my family but with my friends here..all of them are like a family to me..biasa lar tue kalau belajar di perantauan mesti ada pengorbanan yang harus dilakukan..so, kira this is my pengorbanan..hehe..the most important thing of all during this raya is not reminiscing or remembering what sacrifice you have done in your life but to see and remember what others have sacrifice for u..in my case, it's about my parents' sacrifices for me..they've sacrifice a lot for me..they sacrifice everything so that anak diorg nie hidup dgn selesa, happy and dpt pendidikan yang terbaik..and i'm thankful and blessed to have them as my parents..i wouldn't trade them for anything in this world..without them i'm nothing..i wouldn't even know or get to see the world if it's not becoz of them..thank u Allah for giving me such loving parents and a beautiful family..what i want in life is to get my degree, get a good job and make them proud and happy..and i want to repay them and give them the life that they deserve..and i hope that i'll always be their daughter till Jannah.. :')

Jadi, dengan ini, saya yang bernama Sarah Azleena Abdul Aziz ingin mengucapkan kepada family saya, sanak saudara, rakan2 dan semua muslimin dan muslimat Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidiladha..harap dimaafkan segala kekhilafan yang ada pada diri ini sesungguhnya saya hanya lar manusia biasa yang sentiasa membuat silap..salam perantauan dari kami yang berada di Bandung.. :) be safe people and have a blast! :)

Have You Ever?

Have you ever miss someone that there's no other ways for u to express it or words for u to describe how u feel?

      That is what I'm feeling right now..homesick yang sangat lar teruk..i miss everyone back home..i miss my family, my friends and him...if only there's a way to show them and tell them how much i miss them..living abroad and far from home is a tough challenge..seeing other people updating their status on FB saying that they're gonna go back to their hometown and spend time with their families really tears my heart apart..coz i can't be at home with my family..i can't be with them on special occasions such as birthdays or family gatherings and such..i really miss my family so much..all i want right now is to hug my mum and sit beside her watching korean series on TV..

       The other people that i miss are my bestfriends..they are like the other half of me..they know me better than anyone else besides my mum..i really miss hanging out with them..having silly late night conversations in my room..laugh out loud as if the world is only for us..sleepover at either my house or their house..crazy camwhoring moment together..i miss all that and i miss them dearly..but one thing's for sure, nothing can break the bond that we have with each other..walaupun x selalu jumpa, x selalu call, x selalu msg, ada yg dh jadi isteri orang, ada yang dh ada boyfriend, masing2 ada hala tuju n hidup masing2 but the bond that we have still stays strong and will grow stronger with time..

        Maybe it's true when people say that it's not the person that we miss but the moments and memories we had with them..coz we can't get back the moment or memories we had last time coz it stays in the past..but these memories or moments are what keep us going in life and enjoy life and appreciate life a lot more..we tend to appreciate these people in our life more when they're not in front of our eyes..well, maybe that's why there is a saying that says absence makes the heart grew fonder..so, we all should appreciate our life and the people in it and be thankful for whatever u have in life and whoever that Allah has placed in your life and heart...

p/s: can't wait to be back in january... :)

my first post.

This is not the first time I blog..

I used to blog before this but something came up that i had to stop blogging..

So, since there's a lot of things on my mind these days, i think why not start a new blog and start writing or in another sense typing..

I'd rather spill all my thoughts here than keeping it on my mind and let myself go crazy or mad or insane..

Coz that's what gonna happen if i don't let it all out..

So, whatever the content of this blog is going to be in the future, is mainly about what i think and feel in general..

And it is also based on what i observed around me and it's just a personal opinion of mine regarding stuffs that i observed..

So, whoever that is going to read this blog in the future, please don't get butt-hurt so easily by what i'm gonna post in the  future..

Coz i'm not gonna take the responsibility if any of u go through some kind of trauma or histeria or gangguan jiwa or mental or heartbreaks or whatsoever after reading my blog..

The risks are yours to take and never to put the blame on me..

Thank you and Have a nice day!

p/s: all of you are welcome to view my blog and read it.. :)